Indiana-bound

I'm excited this week! My husband and I set our dates to go back to Indiana for two weeks to see our family.  It's strange because I don't particularly like living in Indianapolis, but I love to visit.  I get so excited when we plan to go back.  Most of our family members haven't met Jordyn yet.  Everyone is so happy we are finally bringing her up there.  She will be six months on March seventh; it's been too long.

Even though I'm full of excitement, I'm also a little nervous about taking Jordyn on a two week trip.  First, there's the drive, which even I get bored on.  Then I've got to worry about packing up all of her stuff (a million plus one things!).  Then I know as soon as we get there everyone is going to want me to drive all over town for them to see Jordyn.  We pretty much do that everytime we go home.  You know what? I've made the decision that I'm not going to be driving my baby all over town.  They know where I'll be at!

Am I being unfair? Saying that I won't take her all around for eveyone to see her? I don't think so!

Oh no! Xbox!

Well, my husband is having a guys night tonight.  So me and Jordyn are sitting at the computer trying to entertain ourselves with a little Pandora and homework, while the guys play the new Xbox I got for my husband for Valentine's day.  That might have been a mistake!  He already had a Playstation 3, which took his attention most evenings, now he has an Xbox! Ooops!

I was playing catch up all this week.  My husband, daughter, and I went to San Antonio this past weekend.  We were only gone for three days, but I still found myself behind on all my work this week.  So between taking care of Jordyn, working, keeping my house tidy, and doing homework, I felt like I was drowning.  My house looked like a tornado went through it this week by the way.  It's very hard for me to concentrate on my homework and studies when there is a mess all around me.  I had to do my best to ignore it all week though.  I was swamped. 

In general, I had a pretty good week though.  I definitely can't complain when I get to spend all my days with Jordyn instead of putting her in daycare.  (Jordyn keeps trying to type a hello to you all; it's taking me forever to type this little bit.) I just wanted to say hello to you all and I hope you have a fun, safe weekend! Happy Presidents' Day! Talk to you all soon!

I had to deal with carrots and rice all over the floor and a whiney baby today.  She was just adding to my messy house.

Me and JoJo. The love of my life!

Wish I could do this instead of homework sometimes! Must be nice.

Motherhood

Being a mom makes me miss my own mom so much more than I ever did.  She and my dad have retired from the Air Force and live in Indianapolis.  I never imagined my life taking me where it has.  I am a product of an Air Force marriage, and now I'm married into the Air Force.  My mom left Minneapolis and my grandparents behind when she was 18 to join the military.  I always told her I wouldn't leave her.  I ended up doing the same thing to her as she did to them.  Yes, I missed her when I first moved away, but now that I have my daughter, I miss her and my dad even more.  Now I understand exactly how my mom felt raising me and my younger brother without her parents.  She comes to Louisiana to visit often, but it's just not the same. 

When me and my husband first found out that I was pregnant, I was so happy, but so terrified at the same time.  I was afraid I wasn't going to know how to take care of my baby.  (Especially because my mom wasn't here to help me.)  I kept worrying myself to death throughout my whole pregnancy; but as soon as I saw Jordyn's face and held her for the first time, all that worry melted away.  I realized that motherhood came naturally to me.  I knew exactly what to do for her and when to do it. 

I've always felt like I was doing so great in my life, and that I would continue to do great things for myself and others.  But now I feel like bringing another life into the world is the greatest thing I'll ever do.  It's an extraordinary feeling to have a child.  It's still so surreal to me, even after 5 months.  I'm a lot more tired than I used to be, and there is a lot more I have to do in my days, but I would never trade it for anything.  I love being her mom.  It's the greatest joy I have ever felt. 

I feel so complete when she looks at me and laughs.  And I feel even more complete when I see my husband and his babygirl together.  This is what my life is supposed to be!

By the way, I love sharing pictures! That is the most cliche thing a mom can do, but I can't help it!


I waited 3 months just so she could wear this for tax season!




Jordyn and her 6'5" daddy.